Saturday, January 26, 2008

Journey, 1-24-08
Fear and Faith



“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, thought the earth give way and the mountains fall into the sea.” Psalm 46:1-3

“And he did not do many miracles there because of their lack of faith.” Matthew 13:58

Two of the things I have been thinking about lately are fear and faith. Last night the pastor preached on Psalm 46. He talked about how God is our refuge and we have no need to fear. The area of fear that caught my attention was fear spawned by uncertainty. I have a million questions along the lines of “what’s next God?” and though God does not let me in on the details of his plan I have no need to fear. As the rest of Psalm 46 tells us, we win in the end. If the victory is guaranteed then what do we have to be afraid about? Pastor Phil went on to talk about verse 6 and how God’s voice melts the earth. It is a pretty amazing picture of the God who is our refuge. Since the power of his voice alone is able to melt the very earth we stand on what in the world do we have to fear?

In contrast to that is the verse in Matthew 13 that I noticed last Sunday. The people of Jesus’ hometown missed out on the power of the Messiah because of their lack of faith. May it never be said of me that I missed out on the work that God could have done in and through me because I doubt and lack faith. Instead let me ask Him to give me the faith that I lack, while removing the fears that I can’t seem to shake.

As I ponder these contrasts it is a reminder that I, once again, need to take God out of the box that I so often mentally push him into and remember just how GREAT He really is.

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Auralia's Colors: Post #3 (Tour 1/21/08-1/23/08)

Here are some final thoughts on this novel by Jeffrey Overstreet. Click the book cover to see Auralia's Colors at Amazon.

The Keeper:

One of the things about this book that I found evoked contradictory thoughts was the portrayal of "The Keeper." The Keeper was a character that was very much in the background of the story.

First, I thought it very interesting how every child dreamed of The Keeper. No one told them about him, they simply knew that he was. I also liked how Overstreet compared and contrasted the adult's reactions to this keeper. Most "outgrew" him and thought of him as only a bad dream from childhood. Some, like the Ale boy, still considered him. Yet, he considered him with fear and trembling. Others, like the King and Queen bristled at his name and tried to erase his mention in their presence and their kingdom. Then there was Auralia, who sought him.

I also thought it interesting that The Keeper inspired both fear and awe but never joy. Maybe we will see that in later books, but the Keeper seemed to be too unknown and fearful for me to feel drawn to his character. Perhaps that is because most of the time we saw him through the eyes of those who feared him or didn't believe. I guess I would have preferred to see a figure who either drew people (inspiring that tingling in your veins hope) or completely repelled them. Perhaps also I failed to feel drawn to him because I couldn't relate to the physical description he was given. It was too monster like in my mind to be able to relate the description to something good, something to be in awe of, yes, something to trust in or seek after, not for me. Maybe this figure will be expounded upon later in the series. I hope so.

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008


Auralia's Colors: Post #2 (Tour 1/21/08-1/23/08)

My first post for the CSFF tour is below. I intended to post it yesterday (Monday) but had huge computer issues so be sure to check out the overview of the book before reading further in this post.

Deeper layers:

Auralia's Colors isn't a book where the themes jump out at you. In fact, I was captivated by the story and completed the book altogether too quickly. It isn't unusual for me to read a novel in a short amount of time, however, it is unusual for me to come to the end of the tale and not have a clear picture of the intent and imbedded themes within the novel. While I enjoyed the story from start to finish it took some reflection for me to appreciate the layers of themes in the work.

Musings on Auralia's Colors:

The first thing that jumped out at me was the amazing descriptions of colors. A line in the very first chapter captured my attention:

"her eyes gathered sunset's burning hues and flickered with some element he had never seen; the way she rested, as though commanded to surrender by some voice only she could hear."

The color of the sunset melded in my mind with the moment of decision and surrender. Throughout the book the mood and the elements of the story are joined with a striking mental image of color. The majority of the time I am not excited about a favorite book becoming a motion picture, because so often the screen simply can't convey the richness of the novel (though I would say The Lord of the Rings trilogy was a notable exception). That said, I would love to see Auralia's colors on the big screen. As an amateur artist and someone who enjoys dabbling in video and graphic editing I can imagine how video techniques could visually display Overstreet's amazing writing revolving around color. My only dilemma was slowing down enough while reading to allow the descriptions to become full mental images.

The comparisons of life without color and Auralia's ability to see the colors of the world were thought provoking considerations for me personally. The Queen, in the novel, banned color from the masses and carefully controlled the use of color both within the walls of the city and, until Auralia arrived, in the outer villages as well. Over time, though color was not gone from the created world, the people stopped noticing the colors. Their vision came to reflect the blandness of their colorless daily lives. Auralia often stated that she didn't make the colors, she simply found them. The Creator had lavished all of creation with color if you simply had eyes to see.

As I live and work in a former communist country I daily see the effects of a system that was designed to oppress and stamp out hope. Hope has always been present and available but after years of oppression and control few readily see the hope that exists. It struck me as an interesting parallel that my vision is to see the people of this land embrace the hope that is waiting for them if only they have eyes to see the reality and availability of redemption. The theme of "seeing colors" in Auralia's Colors is a subtle but beautiful picture of the truth, He who has ears, let him hear and a reflection of the possibility of discovery, I once was blind but now I see.

Click on the cover purchase the book at Amazon. You can read the first chapter of the book here. Beware, if you start reading you might just have to buy the book. :)

Another CSFF member blogging about Auralia's colors is Robert Treskillard. His blog didn't make it into the list yesterday but it is well worth looking at his review here.

Check back tomorrow for a few more comments on Auralia's Colors.

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This month's tour is:

Jeffery Overstreet

and his book

Auralia's Colors


ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

JEFFREY OVERSTREET first read "The Hobbit" at age 7, and by age 10 he had read "The Lord of the Rings" several times. He knew he wanted to grow up to write fantasy stories. Soon after meeting and interviewing the cast and crew of Peter Jackson's "The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King" (on assignment for ChristianityTodayMovies.com), he was offered his first publishing contract... for the first book in a series called The Auralia Thread. Visit his blog here.

AURALIA'S COLORS:


Into a world where color is banned for all but a privileged few comes a child of mystery with a talent for seeing and creating color. Beasts lurk and men strive, but color births hope.

Auralia’s gift wakens things long forgotten, stirs up greed and sparks hope. Where did she come from and is the Keeper real?

I enjoyed this novel of fantasy, mystery, struggle and hope.

Auralia's simple innocence and joy in giving contrast nicely with her struggle to sacrifice for the ungrateful and her quest to serve the one who called her to the task.

And the cover art, all I have to say is WOW! It really helped create a more vivid picture of the expanse.

Click on the cover to read reviews or purchase the book at Amazon. You can also visit the Auralia's Colors website here.

Other CSFF members blogging about Auralia's colors are:
Brandon Barr Jim Black Justin Boyer Grace Bridges Jackie Castle Carol Bruce Collett Valerie Comer D. G. D. Davidson Chris Deanne Jeff Draper April Erwin Marcus Goodyear Andrea Graham Jill Hart Katie Hart Timothy Hicks Heather R. Hunt Becca Johnson Jason Joyner Kait Karen Carol Keen Mike Lynch Margaret Rachel Marks Shannon McNear Melissa Meeks Rebecca LuElla Miller Mirtika or Mir's Here Pamela Morrisson Eve Nielsen John W. Otte John Ottinger Deena Peterson Rachelle Steve Rice Cheryl Russel Ashley Rutherford Hanna Sandvig Chawna Schroeder James Somers Donna Swanson Steve Trower Speculative Faith Jason Waguespac Laura Williams Timothy Wise

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

Something to look forward to...the pirates are coming back!

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Friday, January 11, 2008

Interesting thoughts

One of the blogs that I read on a regular basis belongs to one of my favorite authors: Karen Hancock. Now I'll give a shameless plug for her books. If you like fanatasy and spiritual truth rolled into one you have got to read her books! Here is a link to the first book in her Guardian King series.

Over the last couple of days she has posted some interesting and insightful blogs about the struggle between our fallen sin nature and our new life in Christ. You can read the posts at: http://karenhancock.blogspot.com/ or individual post links are below.

The posts start with Spiritual Schizophrenia, continue with Iconoclastic Arrogance and then go on to respond to a note from a reader in the post Planting Thoughts. I found the posts timely as I have been contemplating the struggle of the sin nature in comparison with who we are in Christ. Also it was nice to have Iconoclastic Arrogance described. I have often witnessed such behavior in book and movie characters and occasionally in people that I know and now I know what it is called. :)

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Post #3 CFRB January Tour

Time Masters, Book One: The Call is the featured work for January’s tour by the Christian Fiction Review Blog. Click on the image to go to see Time Masters at Amazon.

Time Masters is a fast paced and interesting story centered around two individuals, one human and one Muiraran, who are destined to change the world. Only together can they stop a great evil. We will have to wait for future books in the series for full details of this evil to be revealed, yet in Book One: The Call, we see the struggle to foil this unnamed evil in its first attempt to control time and the history of mankind.

One of the things that I loved about Time Masters was the depth of the characters. Kwaku, Zara, John, Lany, Tomi, Kitty, Julia, Phillip: not a one seemed flat. The feeling of understanding the characters, along with their thoughts, fears, joys and idiosyncrasies, draws the reader fully into the story.

My favorite character was Shona, the Muiraran maiden. From the beginning we see a girl old enough to be out in the world, yet strangely isolated. She struggles with the fear that she is losing her mind as her nightmares progress. She possesses no idea that her nightly dreams are revealing not insanity but her true nature - she is not human. From the beginning we see that Shona is searching. She doesn’t know what she searches for but she knows that she is missing something. She also has dreams of the boy to whom she gave her heart. Is the boy only another dream? Only her music holds her questions and her need at bay.

In Shona we see a young lady who is innocent and trusting. Everything about her character makes you desire to see her protected and cherished. This adds to the suspense of the story as forces conspire to capture, control and even experiment on her. This also draws the reader into the conflict and heightens the intensity of the struggle as you rejoice in Dallan uncovering his desire to protect and cherish Shona. He becomes a larger than life hero, as despite his struggles and bitterness over his situation, he comes to cherish and seek the good of the Muiraran maiden.

I would encourage you to stop by Amazon where you can read the first chapter, other reviews and order the book. You can also stop by the CFRB site to read daily posts that reflect on several of the spiritual lessons that can be learned from Time Masters: The Call.

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Monday, January 07, 2008

Post #2 CFRB January Tour

Time Masters, Book One: The Call is the featured work for January’s tour by the Christian Fiction Review Blog. Click the book cover to see the book at Amazon.

From the moment I first read the synopsis I was intrigued. Time travel, a Scotsman (those who know me know how much I love Scotland), fantasy and true love all contained in the same novel. I couldn't imagine what could be better, only to discover that Time Masters was also full of spiritual truth embedded as an intricate part of the tale!

Time Masters captivated me and I highly recommend it. I found the premise creative, the theme of virtue uplifting, the writing descriptive and the story highly engaging.


Musings on Book One: The Call

There is a Creator God who created races both Muiraran and Human. Then He ordained that they must co-exist and intermarry in a very unique way for the future of both races. You see, Muirarans have two hearts. One heart functions much as a human heart. Yet, the other must be fed by something specific, a hunger that the Creator gave that individual Muiraran, that can only be channeled through a human mate. Muirarans also contain special abilities, that when placed in loving submission to a human mate can change the course of history.

While being drawn up into a fascinating story, I also found myself captivated with the spiritual concepts in Time Masters. The spiritual concepts were told in a subtle way and beautifully woven into the fabric of the story.


The Hunger of the Second Heart:

I literally spent days after finishing The Call musing on the second heart of the Muiraran. My musings drew me to reflect on my own heart and a quote by Blaise Pascal, “There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God, the Creator, made known through Jesus.”

Beauchamp’s Muirarans appeared to be a beautiful picture of the most basic need of humans to know and enter into a personal relationship with God. The Muiraran must mate with a human and feed her heart or die. What an interesting reflection on one of the most foundational of spiritual principles; that if we do no join our lives to Christ and fill our heart with His life then we likewise will perish.

True Virtue, True Love:

Other powerful themes in Time Masters were the reflections, comparisons and contrasts of love. I so appreciated the depiction of an imperfect, yet upright and virtuous main character. Dallan, the Scotsman, exemplifies virtue and real love; love that protects, cherishes, and is not self-seeking. His nemesis, on the other hand, portrays a clear picture of love corrupted. In him we see love strangled by selfish desires which leads only to lust and destruction.

I appreciated the clear portrayal of sex as a portion of a loving relationship, but a thing to be guarded and treasured and given in conjunction of the mutual submission of the whole life to one’s mate.

Time Masters: The Call also contained a true Biblical picture of submission in love. The contrast between submission as it is meant to be and the high price of the corruption of love that came from the abuse of submission was very well done!

Discussion Questions:

Also, I was pleased to see the discussion questions at the end of the book. Reading and discussing novels had a tremendous impact on me during my teen years and continues to be a wonderful critical thinking exercise. I believe that Time Masters would be a wonderful book for teens, young adults and virtually all ages to read and discuss, especially due to the clear portrayals and inherent warning about love, sex and virtue that are packed into an amazingly creative and well written fantasy.

Finally, check out Cathi's Chatter for a great summary of the novel and Grace Bridges post for another review highlighting some of the fun elements of the novel .

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Journey, an update 1-7-08


“For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will – to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding.” Ephesians 1:4-8

The turning of the calendar to a new year is always an opportunity for reflection. In the past year I encountered trials and blessings, sorrow and joys. Life’s lessons do not generally come easily. One of the things that I have found over and over again in my walk with God is that the closer He draws me to His amazing and holy presence, the more I realize what a sinful creature I am at the very core of my being. I think that especially now that I find myself out of my “comfort zone” I often see deeper into my true nature than I ever have the opportunity to see when life is easier. Praise God, He is SO FAITHFUL and he continues to mold me into the woman that He would have me to be.

In light of these reflections I couldn’t help but be stopped speechless by the reminder of Ephesians 1. I am holy and blameless in God’s sight, because of the blood. Though I am constantly humbled by my shortcomings and drawn to my knees by my weaknesses, God doesn’t see my failures or my sins. He sees me holy and blameless. He sees me through the blood: a reflection of His glorious Son.

Yesterday I heard a David Crowder song that I wasn’t familiar with. These are the words that caught my attention and reflected so beautifully the message of Ephesians 1.

“You make everything glorious

and i am Yours

what does that make me?"

So today I am reveling in the reminder that God sees me not as I am but as I will be. He sees His finished work in me. What an amazing realization to take into the New Year!

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Sunday, January 06, 2008

Post #1 CFRB January Tour
This month's author is:

Geralyn Beauchamp

and her book

TIME MASTERS Book One: The Call

The week of January 6th the Christian Fiction Review Blog is touring the novel TIME MASTERS. Each day for the next week you can read insights about the book at the CFRB site and you can also follow the Blog Roll on the CFRB site to read what other CFRB members are saying about Time Masters.

Today I am giving general information about the book. Check back tomorrow for my personal comments on the novel.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Geralyn Beauchamp, a former book reviewer and current Wellness and Relationship coach, wrote Time Masters more than ten years ago. “I wrote Time Masters just for me, to see if I could. It was more for fun than anything else "

A native Oregonian, Geralyn and her family live outside of Portland, Oregon.

Publishers Synopsis:


“This first book of the Time Masters series is a breathtaking tale of adventure, romance, virtue and destiny. In the year 3698, the threat of civil war is ever present, and an unnamed but powerfully evil entity is attempting to manipulate time and control people to its advantage. To keep the world as they know it from crumbling, the people of Muirara must convince a reluctant Scotsman – taken away from the 17th century – to protect, love and cherish a Muiraran Maiden, an unsuspecting girl who’s not quite human but who holds extraordinary powers and the fate of the future in her hands.”

I encourage you to read the first chapter here. Also, you can click the book image to read more at Amazon.

And remember to check back to tomorrow for some of my thoughts on this fascinating novel by Beauchamp.

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Friday, January 04, 2008

It's Cold Outside

I had seen this video before but it still made me laugh this time around. I thought it appropriate to share today since it is a chilly 16 degrees (F) outside. The sun did peek out for a short time today in between some light snow. Hope you are staying warm!

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Thursday, January 03, 2008

Happy New Year!

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Happy New Year! I hope that you enjoyed your Christmas Holidays. This year I had the special blessing of my parents visiting. I had the last two weeks off and had a wonderful time just enjoying family. Some of you get my dad’s e-mails so you will know all about the projects, shopping and traveling we did.

Mom did a lot of wonderful baking. It was amazing to have the house smelling like cookies and bread. Dad and I ran errands and he got a first hand look at what life in Hungary can be like as we waited in line at the grocery store and post office. In addtion, he got to see how a simple errand required multiple trips to four different locations when we went to purchase a new cell phone. (My phone died the last day that we were in Vienna).

It was such an amazing blessing to have help in getting my house in order. I have been so busy since I moved that many things have gone undone. Dad installed a countertop and four light fixtures. Mom made me beautiful new curtains for the living room and kitchen and we moved my old curtains to the all-glass entryway.

We also got to go to Vienna for three days and meet my cousin Kevin who is stationed in Germany with the Air Force. We had a great time visiting and seeing the sights. I even dragged them all to the Bagel store so I could enjoy one of my favorite foods that I can’t get in Hungary. The only sad thing is that I think mom and dad saw more of historical Vienna than of Budapest. So much of the time they were in Hungary everything was closed for the holidays so they will have to come back and do the tourist attractions another time.

Finally, we got to just spend time together, play cards and laugh. It was such a wonderful Christmas gift to be with family!

The time went way too quickly and yesterday I took mom and dad to the airport for their trip back to Florida. They called this morning (very early Tampa time) to let me know that they had arrived safely minus their luggage which should catch up to them later today or tomorrow.

Now the house is way too quiet and it is back to work for me. We have new team members arriving on Monday and I am looking forward to having them join us in sharing the love of Jesus here in Hungary.

I pray that our Lord will bless and keep you in 2008 as you follow after Him,

Rachelle

Tuesday, January 01, 2008


Happy New Year!
It is January 1st, time for the FIRST Day Blog Tour! (Join our alliance! Click the button!)
The FIRST day of every month we will feature an author and his/her latest book's FIRST chapter!


This month's feature author is:


and her book:

Abandoned
Identity

Evergreen Press (AL) (August 1, 2007)

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Hooray! Tamara is one of our very own FIRST members!

She resides with her husband, Walter, and their children, John, Christopher, and Jennifer, at Hume Lake Christian Camps in the Sequoia National Forest. They have served on full-time staff and ministered at Hume for 13 years.

Tamara manages one of the retail stores at Hume Lake, which serves thousands of kids visiting the conference center on a daily basis.

Not only does she write, she is also an avid reader and enjoys other hobbies such as scrapbooking, designing greeting cards and invitations,
and enjoying God's creation from her from porch.


AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:


The young, blond woman stepped off the elevator, rushed past the receptionist, and quickly headed down the hallway.

“Jennifer, Mr. Lynch is looking for you,” Doris called after her.

Jennifer didn’t stop to acknowledge the message. She didn’t have time. She could hear the warning in Doris’ tone. Mr. Lynch was looking for her, knowing she was late returning from lunch. This could very well be her last day at Weissler and Schuler.

She glanced at her watch as she threaded her way through the multitude of workstations. She moved as quickly as she could, even though she knew her efforts were probably for nothing—after all, late was late. He would assume she had done it on purpose and would make good on his threat from the previous week. Lynch had given her two weeks to change her attitude or she would be fired.

She hurried past his office door, hoping against hope that she would be able to slip by without being noticed. A sideways glance told her otherwise. She continued towards her own office, knowing he would be quick on her heels. She had struggled all morning, trying to do her work, trying to keep it together, but with the way she was feeling, her resolve was beginning to crumble. She’d only had enough time to slip off her jacket before she heard his booming voice in the hallway.

“Ms. Patterson, you of all people should not be abusing time restrictions. A one-hour lunch is a one-hour lunch, not an hour and 25 minutes,” he scolded her loud enough so everyone could hear him as he made his way down the hall toward her office.

Jennifer hung up her coat and purse on the rack behind her door and slumped in the overstuffed sofa that filled her office. She braced herself for the inevitable.

“You knew we needed to get started on the Yomahama account first thing after lunch,” he said as he entered her office and firmly shut the door. “Obviously you don’t care about this account as much as you say you do.” He was poised for her counterattack but was surprised instead to hear her soft apology.

“I’m sorry. I thought I could make it home and back again. But with the snow, and the traffic, and the way I’m . . .”

What’s the use explaining, she thought to herself. He doesn’t care. She had just given him the excuse he was looking for. She figured she would be packing up her personal items in less than an hour. She took a deep breath, her eyes focused downward. “I’m sorry. It wasn’t intentional.”

Harrison was taken aback. In the short time he’d known Jennifer, she had never apologized for her actions. Everything she did was intentionally antagonistic toward him. But somehow he sensed a difference in her mood.

“What’s wrong?” he bristled, not really wanting to hear her excuse.

She glanced up at his imposing figure but lowered her eyes to the floor as she spoke. “I tried to kick something all weekend. I guess I’m just not feeling up to par.”

He said nothing, waiting for her to make eye contact with him. She stiffened her back, sighed and said, “It won’t happen again.”

Had she brushed a tear from her cheek? Not possible, he thought to himself. Jennifer Patterson was tough as nails. She would never lower herself to tears in the workplace . . . that was unless she really was ill.

He waited again for her to look up at him, and when she did, he was met with vacant eyes, pallid skin, and beads of sweat that were starting to form on her brow. Just then, the intercom system went off. “Mr. Lynch, Mr. Yomahama is on the line. Shall I put him through to Miss Patterson’s office or your own?”

Obviously Doris knew where to find him because of the scene he had just made. He walked around to the front of Jennifer’s desk and cleared his voice before pushing the intercom button. “I’ll take it in my office, Doris. Give me a minute to get there.”

Lynch gave Jennifer one last stern look and then marched from her office, shutting her door with a little more force than necessary.

She collapsed against the cushions, her strong exterior completely dissolving. She had done everything she could to hold back her tears in his presence, but his quick exit allowed her to unleash the torrent she had been suppressing.

She had never felt this horrible before in her life. She would’ve called in sick if it weren’t for the fact that she knew her job was in jeopardy. It isn’t fair, she thought to herself. I should have Lynch’s job. For the hundredth time Jennifer went over in her mind the scenario that had taken her completely by surprise.

She had been groomed for the director’s position by Meg, long before Meg left to start a family. Jennifer had put in countless hours on different accounts to make sure her and Meg’s statistics had been well researched and presented in a polished manner. She had done the bulk of Meg’s work, along with her own, as Meg progressed into her third trimester. It simply wasn’t fair!

The day corporate brought in Harrison Lynch and announced he would be the new director, instead of her, she was livid. She felt demeaned and unappreciated. Everyone in the office knew she had worked hard for the job and had deserved it. But corporate behaved in their typical chauvinistic manner and took the opportunity to replace Meg with a man instead of another woman. Testosterone was the only asset that Harrison Lynch had that she did not.

While the other women in the office were quick to overlook the injustice of the situation because of Harrison’s availability, good looks, and charismatic personality, she only saw him as a thorn in her side.

She would only be fooling herself if she said she didn’t see his appeal. He was older than she was—the classic tall, dark, and handsome type. His sparkling brown eyes and wavy brown hair gave him a boyish charm, but his stature and muscular body proved him to be anything but boyish. His enigmatic character made him the kind of man that breezed through life with ease, putting the Midas touch on everything he encountered. But the way he clashed with her, rubbing her the wrong way and always trying to put her in her place, made his good looks less appealing.

Jennifer had butt heads with Harrison ever since he had shown up. She was not afraid to speak out against his proposals or the way in which he supplied information to a client. She had caused him more than one embarrassing moment in important meetings with prospective accounts. She upstaged him with what she called “a more efficient way to gather and record information.” She didn’t think it beneath her to use her feminine mystique with a client in order to work on a case that Lynch would’ve preferred to handle by himself. Lynch had put her on the spot on more than one occasion, but somehow she always came out looking professional in front of the clients.

When she had worked with Meg, Jennifer’s desk was out front with everyone else’s. She liked it that way. She enjoyed working in an environment that buzzed with activity. But Lynch changed all that. He made it very clear that Jennifer was his assistant, and he needed her at his personal disposal. And so he had her move her things into the smaller of the two conference rooms.

Giving Jennifer her own office was not a reward but a sentence. She felt he had isolated her on purpose to break her spirit. It had taken the wind out of her sails for a short period, but she decided two could play at that game. She promptly ordered custom office furniture and personalized the space. What he had intended on being a lonely, sterile environment, she had turned into a showplace of warmth and femininity.

She had one-upped him again and gloated in the fact that he could do nothing about it. After all, he was the one that gave her her own office and the freedom to decorate it the way she wanted. The fact that she did it with pastels in a style she knew he disliked (even though she disliked it too) was icing on the cake. Harrison had declared that an office should reflect professionalism not personality and initially insisted she get rid of everything. His request was denied when Mrs. Weissler came in and admired what she had done with the old conference room. With Mrs. Weissler on her side, Jennifer had once again thwarted Lynch’s authority.

Lynch had finally had enough. He called her into his office a week earlier and lowered the boom. “I’m giving you two weeks notice.”

“You’re firing me?” Jennifer was floored. Though she knew that he disliked her as much as she disliked him, he would have to xplain to corporate why he was letting such a valuable employee go.

“No, I’m not firing you . . . yet.” He was cool and calm as he sat behind his solid oak desk. “I’m giving you two weeks to change your attitude. I’m tired of the mind games, the flirting with clients, and the way you insist on making proposals before discussing them with me. Weissler and Schuler should present a united front to all our clients, not a sense of division and indecisiveness. You have two weeks to get on board, assume your position as my assistant, and change your ‘I can top that’ attitude. If you choose not to, you will give me no alternative than to let you go.”

Now, it was just a week later, and Jennifer had given Lynch the perfect opportunity to show corporate that she was not the team player that they had assumed her to be. Corporate was breathing down everyone’s neck about the Yomahama account. It meant millions to them if they could seal the deal. If they felt she hadn’t given it her all, they would allow Lynch to have his way, no questions asked.

Jennifer sobbed into the arm of the floral couch that she despised. She thought about all the ways she had tried to make work uncomfortable for Harrison Lynch but knew she had failed. On occasion, he had tried joking with her and having innocuous conversations, but she would have none of it. She wouldn’t accept the olive branch that he tried to extend to her. Now he would have the last laugh, and it would be her own fault.

The door swung open once again. Harrison was poised and ready to battle with her, only to find her hunched over, her head in her hands and tears falling onto her charcoal colored slacks.

He felt uncomfortable finding her in such a vulnerable position. The all-business exterior he had resolved to use with her now took a back seat to the compassionate Harrison that others had seen. He stood for a moment before taking a seat on the couch alongside her and waited for her to gather her composure. It took several minutes before she could speak.

“I know what you’re going to say, so I’ll save you the energy.” She rubbed at her aching brows and sniffled. “You’ll have the files for the Yomahama account on your desk by the end of the day, and I’ll clean out my things. You can do what you want with the furniture. I don’t want it.” She held her head like she was afraid it was going to snap off her neck.

Harrison just sat there, not saying a thing. Jennifer wished he would just leave. She felt defeated and humiliated. He’d gotten his way; he’d won. With the experience she’d gained at Weissler and Schuler, she’d have no problem getting a job elsewhere, so she resolved to give up without a fight. Her only desire right then was to get home before her head exploded.

It seemed like an eternity before he spoke again. “What have you taken for it?”

“What?” She was confused. There was no smugness to his tone. In fact, if she wasn’t mistaken, he actually sounded concerned. She didn’t dare look at him. Just lifting her head would hurt too much.

“Is it a cold or the flu?”

“A cold,” she answered, wondering why he was being so nice. It was a trait she didn’t think he was capable of, at least not with her. He got up and left the room without saying another word.

She glanced at his receding steps, totally confused. She grabbed a tissue from her purse and tried to wipe away the salty tears and runny nose that was moistening her lips. She gently rolled her head back against the couch and sighed heavily, thankful for the solitude. It didn’t last long; within minutes, Harrison was back.

He sat down alongside her, causing her head to sway and a small moan to escape her lips. He handed her a glass that was fizzing, along with several pills. “Here’s something for your headache, a decongestant, and a bi-carbonate. They should do the trick.”

“No thanks,” she said through closed eyes. “I can’t take pills. They knock me out and make my head swim. Besides, I still have too much work to do. I don’t have time to pass out.”

“The way I see it, you’re already wasted. You’re no good to me like this. Take these, and in an hour you’ll feel a lot better. I guarantee it. We’ll work on the Yomahama account then.”

“I should have known you wouldn’t let me die quietly,” Jennifer retorted, looking at the pills he was still holding. “And if I don’t take your concoction?”

“Then I’ll have to assume the Yomahama account isn’t as important to you as I gave you credit for, and I’ll get Jerry to work on it with me instead.”

“Jerry!” She sat up, her head throbbing with disapproval. She slowly lowered herself back to the comfort of the couch, covering her eyes with the palms of her hands. “There’s no way I’m going to let Jerry take all my research and screw it up.”

“Okay, then. I guess you’ll have to do it my way,” he said. “Take these, dim the lights, and allow yourself some sleep. Don’t worry about watching the clock. I’ll come and get you in about an hour.”

Jennifer realized it was no longer a suggestion. Harrison put the pills in her hand and waited for her to drink them down with the bi-carbonate.

She tossed them to the back of her throat and held her breath as she drank the fizzy water. She knew she had to do it in one swig, or it would never stay down. Her shoulders shuddered in protest, and she thought she saw the hint of a smile form on Harrison’s lips. He pressed the button for the automatic shades to cover her office windows and dimmed the lights. “I’ll check on you in an hour.” With that, he closed the door and left her with her thoughts.

What just happened? she thought to herself. He had the perfect opportunity to fire me, and instead he helped me. Jennifer couldn’t concentrate on figuring out the answer to that one. Her head was throbbing so hard, it was making it impossible for her to reason.

She pulled her feet up under her and allowed her head to rest on the padded arm of the couch. An hour’s sleep, then I’ll be able to push through the rest of the day. She drifted off quickly. She was a lightweight when it came to tolerating medicine, and with the mixture she had just taken, she knew that she would finally get some rest.

Harrison walked back to his office and closed the door. He stood before the expansive window and watched the falling snow blanket the Chicago streets. Jumbled emotions crowded his mind. He was afraid that he’d allowed Jennifer’s weakened state to play on his sympathy, but it wasn’t unlike him. He really was a nice guy. It’s just that since he’d arrived at Weissler and Schuler, he and Jennifer had clashed . . . no, more like collided.

He found out soon enough that she had thought she was a lock for his job because of the work she had done with the previous director. He tried to talk to her about it and let her know he understood her disappointment. When he told her he was excited to be working with such a talented analyst, she only stiffened at his attempt at civility. Her spitefulness and malice made her look so unattractive—nothing like the vulnerable woman he had just left in the darkened office. He finally saw in her what some of the men in the office already had seen. She was a lot more appealing when she wasn’t being conniving or manipulative. With her defenses down, he actually found himself drawn to her, but he was wary that would change as soon as she had her strength back.

HARRISON HAD BEEN WORKING TIRELESSLY at his computer when he glanced at his watch. He realized it had been more than an hour since he had left Jennifer in her office. He quietly opened her door and leaned in to see how she was doing. She was curled up on the couch, her face flushed and moist. He moved to her side, leaned down, and carefully placed the back of his hand to her forehead. She was feverish. She stirred under his touch, but her eyes had a difficult time focusing. She looked at Harrison and tried to figure out why she was lying down and why he was hovering over her. She closed her eyes and vaguely remembered being late to work and taking a handful of medicine.

“What time is it?” Her voice was barely above a whisper.

“Almost 3:00 p.m.”

“Oh, my gosh.” She tried sitting up as her head spun out of control. “I’ve got to get working. We have the Yomahama meeting tomorrow. We can’t waste any more time.”

Harrison pressed his hands against her shoulders and gently pushed her back against the couch cushions. “You need to rest. Your body is obviously trying to fight something. You have a fever.”

“We don’t have time for this, Mr. Lynch.”

She again moved to a sitting position. She wiped at the perspiration on her forehead and scooped her long blonde hair up into a handful on top of her head. She started pulling at the pink cashmere sweater she was wearing, bellowing it to get some cool air up against her skin. “I feel like I’m suffocating.”

“That’s the fever.”

Before Harrison realized what she was doing, Jennifer reached for the hem of her sweater and began to pull it over her head.

He turned away and sputtered, “What are you doing?”

“If you have a fever, you’re supposed to keep at least one foot and one shoulder exposed to cool air.”

“Where did you hear that?”

“I’m not sure, but it’s worked before.”

She continued to remove her sweater. Harrison was relieved to see that she was wearing a silky, pink shell underneath the soft sweater. She pulled her black, high heeled boots from her feet and curled up into a fetal position once again.

“You look miserable; you need to go home. This is ridiculous. There’s no way you’re going to be able to get any work done under these conditions,” Harrison added as she tried to get comfortable.

“I’d be fine if my head would just stop pounding, and I wasn’t so hot.”

“Let me call you a cab. You need to go home.”

“No! I can beat this. Let me just rest a little bit longer. If I could just get rid of this headache, I know I could finish our proposal. Please give me another hour.” She was determined to finish what she had started, especially since it could quite possibly be her last account. Harrison was being uncharacteristically nice to her at the moment, but if the Yomahama meeting didn’t go well, she knew she would be the proverbial scapegoat.

Harrison stood with his arms firmly crossed against his chest and doubt in his eyes. He knew from past experience there was no sense arguing with her. Of course, there was nothing that said he was obligated to wake her up either.

“Fine, I’ll see you in about an hour.” He left her office with no intention of disturbing her again. If she had the strength to wake up, she would have to do it on her own.

Although Harrison knew he needed to spend every minute on the Yomahama proposal, he found himself thinking about Jennifer. Why hadn’t he noticed her crystal blue eyes or the delicate curve of her jaw before? Maybe because whenever he talked to her, her eyes were glaring and her jaw was set.

He wandered back into Jennifer’s office around 4:30 p.m. He watched her as she slept. Her breathing was even and her complexion no longer looked flush. His eyes followed the tip of her chin to where it rested near her exposed shoulder. He felt his thoughts wandering in a direction that was far from work related. He had always been cautious to keep his professional life separate from his personal life, but somehow seeing Jennifer in such a vulnerable state also exposed a side of her that was quite beautiful.

He left her office and drifted down the hall. People were beginning to shut down their computers and straighten up their workstations. The talk was all about the snow that had continued to fall throughout the day. The weather report was predicting another foot before morning. Harrison waved goodnight to them as they left and headed back to his office.

Doris followed him down the hall, worry etched on her kind face.

“Mr. Lynch, I’m concerned about Miss Patterson. I know she was awfully sick this morning when she came in, and she didn’t look any better when she returned from lunch. I haven’t seen her since you . . . well, since you spoke with her this afternoon.”

Harrison knew what Doris was alluding to. The way he had barked at Jennifer when she returned from lunch had obviously been heard throughout the office.

“I gave her some medicine earlier today, and it made her pretty sleepy. That’s why you haven’t seen her.”

“Will she be okay to drive herself home? The road conditions have
gotten pretty bad.”

“Don’t worry, Doris, I’ll make sure she’s okay before she leaves.”

“Okay, I was just concerned. She really is a sweet girl; she just comes off a bit harsh sometimes.”

“Harsh? That’s an understatement!”

Doris just smiled. “Well, good night, Mr. Lynch.”

“Good night, Doris, and thank you for your concern.”

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